I never thought I would be the way I am today as teenager.
I thought I would be the type of teenager that everyone wants to be when they’re younger
The one that wears make up and dresses like a queen every day.
I could choose to be that way if I wanted to
It’s my life, but I choose to be that way I am.
I don’t want to be looked at in a way that people want to be me, don’t give me wrong I would love to have that Honor, but I don’t deserve it.
I wrote this a few years ago so don’t judge it’s a great idea so I’m planning to rewrite it.
Here’s the beginning of my old book ” I Can’t Breathe” before I rewrote it.
My name is Reanne and I drowned to death, but it wasn’t my fault nor my choice if it was I would be alive at this moment I didn’t want to die my life was just about it start right before it ended, but hey my life wasn’t all that bad it’s just the ending that’s all. People think I did this to myself, but that wasn’t the truth not at all. Let’s go back a few months before any this happened. My life was amazing a few months ago when I actually had a life and I wasn’t dead and all I wasn’t popular in any sense of the word I only had six friends my whole life. who, knew one of them was going to kill me in the end.
It was my senior year in high school I couldn’t wait to graduate and finally leave Santa Monica.
What do you think?
We were riding in the van to my uncles cabin and we were less than a few yards away
my dad decided to turn around in wet gravel. he asked if he was going to back into anything I said yes, but he kept going because no one ever listens to me.
He back straight into a ditch in my defense I warned him so I had to walk up the hill and down his driveway to tell him ” Your idiot brother back in a ditch would you come help him”
That all happened before ten o’clock I normally would never be awake that early.
The reason my Aunt introduced herself as our favorite aunt is because…
She takes us on cruises for our senior trip to Mexico to get as drunk as we want without it being illegal.
It’s a family tradition if my mom knew about it she would flip! It’s my dads side of the family by the way.
My brothers cruise it next year and he’s going with our cousin.
I am hoping to bring my best friend with me, but I think I would have to pay for her to go because it’s so expensive.
I am going on a Disney cruise next year with my best friend and her parents for her birthday it’s going to be so fun.
I’m at my grandparents cabin in North Carolina in the middle of nowhere and you know what that means I have no wifi nor any service, I have to wait to get in to city to post anything.
Being in the middle of nowhere is good for me sometimes you need to be away from everyone and everything.
My favorite aunt is up here and the way she introduced herself to my brothers girlfriend was ” hey there, I’m there favorite aunt.”
I’ll explain why she’s our favorite next post.
As I look out at the ocean in front of me I imagine all the memories.
All the good, All the bad even the memories that play on a loop forever in my head.
I remember when I was standing on the ocean shore. Then I went under, I heard my family crying out my name.
But i was no longer there, no longer in pain I try to explain that I am okay.
Why can’t my parents understand that I’m not a little kid?
I try to act like a Mature teenager, but it’s like they can’t even see it. No matter what I do nothing helps.
I can’t have soda or I will “my head will spin” and I have to go to sleep at ten o’clock because once again “my head will spin.”
I’m so tired of being treated like a five year old. Then screamed at for not acting my age, maybe I will start acting my age when they start treating me my age.
I’m not allowed to walk outside by myself… I’m being to feel like a prisoner in my own home.
Stars, they shine so bright and when you look up into the sky you feel alright.
But then they’re gone it seems and so is the feeling, the feeling of happiness and relief
But don’t you worry there always their. they just like to play a little game called hide ‘n seek.
I have to study there’s no way out of it I’m in high school. I have a future to work for there’s no time for slacking anymore. I have to start taking schoolwork more seriously and grow up.
But how do you grow up what does that entail can someone please tell me because I have no idea.
I make schedules, I have a plan for my life. I know when I want to be, does that make me mature?
Am I the only one who is afraid of the unknown?
“Piece Of Paper”
I am a blank piece of paper. I see doodles all over you, but I am nothing. I wished I was like you.
“You”
You mean to me more than you know. You were there when I felt all alone. You made me who I am and I just wanted to let you know.
Teen Waves 